Happy Holidays, Friends. And I can’t help but say that if it’s not a happy holiday for you then that’s okay. It can just be a holiday and one that you will get through. Life will return to normal and all the the gifts, family, marketing, gathering, socializing will soon be over.
The holidays are always so promising, but about the first week into December it all starts to feel overwhelming for this gal. We set up our tree and decorate rather early. The party invitations start coming in and family planning over text is in full swing. As a highly sensitive person, I find myself getting stuffy and sweaty and wanting to jump on a plane and go anywhere else in the world for the rest of the season. Anyone else feel that way?
I also get stuck thinking about all the things I “should” be doing. I now have three teenagers who, yes, I’m fully devoted to, but have their own agendas. They are also individualizing HARD. If you’ve been in this place or have teens you know that it’s not easy work. I never thought I’d feel more rejected than I do! But, I’m told it will all get better in a few years…I’ll report back.
I’m also sick with Lyme disease so that’s a whole thing that I’ll post about soon because I find myself always wanting to write when I’m struggling.
I hate to be a downer. It’s New Year’s Eve and I’m still in my pjs from the night before wondering if I’ll be able to get out of bed from this week’s flare up. I also find myself craving authenticity even mores. I want to connect with other people who want to keep it real. Right? Because we all have things going on in our lives that we are coping with. Can we just share a bit more?
I just wanted to check in, post my holiday card and tell you that I’m thinking of you all. I think I’m going to do more reading and cooking and praying in the new year. I’ll share all that with you as well. And yes, more marsh paintings because I need something serene to look at.
Praying for your peace and peace in our world.
Love to you.