Thank you for checking on me. I love that and I love you! Where have I been? Well, a busy, sunny and family-filled summer ran into September, which ran into school and piano lessons, guitar lessons, tennis lessons, and soccer, soccer, soccer! Threaded in there has been some family and health issues that take time and patience. But, if I’m being honest it’s not just all this. I’m not sure how to put it into words, but since you’ve asked, I guess I would say that for the past few months I’ve taken up all the energy that I’ve spent blogging and painting and business-ing and turned it inward, towards my family and myself. And I’ve stayed there. Because these important people need me big time. And not to sound too yogi, but I’m trying to listen to myself and sit with my feelings – be still – because I think this is where I find answers when they are ready to be revealed. Do you feel this way too?
My birthday is tomorrow. I turn 39. Some people may say that this is really young and others would say it is old. I think it is just about the very middle. And if I stand in the middle I can try to see all the way to the horizon before me and if I turn around I can see the mountains and valleys of the past. I think maybe I’m fully an adult now and I want to be the kind of adult that is quietly wise, bending towards the creative and unique, able to not take herself too seriously, laugh at everything funny and love big. Maybe it starts with these goals first and then finding a way to get there.
What I do know is that all these little choices and minutes and days that go by where I feel tired or anxious or busy or silly or happy or loved are the bricks that are building up a life that is mine. What the final product of what I’m building as my life is never the point – the end result is never the point. We know that, don’t we? It’s the days and minutes and the actual process that is the meat of life and what really counts. I love the quote by John Lennon, “Life is what happens when we are busy making other plans.”
So, I am still here. I still have a full studio space filled to the brim. I still care about my surroundings and creating home. I care greatly about writing and I care about all of you. I am still Blue Egg Brown Nest. I definitely have thoughts continuing to form about the direction that design is taking and like it or not, the tide is turning as it always does and will. Rooms are sleeker, colors are present, brass is beautiful and spaces are minimal. I’m not worried about this for myself, because I’ve always had a bent towards whatever I imagine would be in a Jane Austen novel. I will always love old books, casters on my chairs, glass cloches and old furniture. I think there is a lesson in this about knowing yourself. But, like fashion, cooking, and the great big ocean, tides move in and out. It’s up to you to decide what you want to be surrounded with and how to keep it intentional, which is always the real design challenge in any home.
As for me and my house, I am loving my kid’s teachers, the new yoga studio I belong to, my smaller-sized jeans, pizza night with my neighborhood, DH’s love for hockey, Luther on Netflix and my new kitten, Gus. This is where I am.