Sometimes I am out and about with friends or family and someone references a post that I’ve written. The first thing I think is “Wow! You read my stuff! Thanks!” The second thing I think is “Gulp. What else have I spilled my guts about on my blog that you’ve read.” It can feel really safe and cozy typing from behind my computer in my little nest here. I love it and I feel a real freedom in it. However, I’m not always sure if people out there are going to understand where I am coming from, my sense of humor, my humility, my volunterability, my vitality…me. It sometimes makes me scared to be honest.
Oh, but there is that word: honest. Honesty. If I can be honest then I don’t have to hide. If I can say, “Here I am world,” then I don’t have to worry about trying to be something I’m not and say the right thing and wear the right thing and do the right thing. What if I let it all hang out or quite a bit of it hang out, how will this help me? Will I be scared at what I’m saying is received? Why, yes. Sometimes. But, my hope is that I can say, “Welp. That’s me.” And what I need to know is that if someone thinks differently then, “Welp. That’s you.” Ahh, freedom is good.
The same goes for you if you are doing something creative, whether you write about it or not. You do your craft, you show it to the world, some like it, some want to BUY it and put it in their homes – I think this is the ultimate compliment. Oh, and some don’t want to buy it because it just doesn’t work for them and that is their freedom. This does not mean that we are not worthy and our work is not beautiful. It does not mean we should run away and hide our light under a bushel.
Not everyone is going to understand everyone. We just need to convince ourselves that we are okay and what we put out there is okay. If this is hard for you, I totally comply with the saying “Fake it ’til you make it.”
Wishing you peace & freedom in your work today, Snowflakes.
(Greta doing tree pose at age 4. Proud Mama.)